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mistressofmuses) wrote2023-10-17 08:07 pm
mistressofmuses) wrote2023-10-17 08:07 pm
Misc: hike, stuff, dogs, writing, NaNo...
We went on a really lovely hike today, enjoying this unseasonably warm day. It was beautiful, and I'm really glad we got to go be outside for a few hours. (There will be pictures later, but I haven't sorted through them yet.)
That does mean that I didn't succeed in any of the catching up I needed to do, but I think getting outside and moving around was the better thing to do! I wish I had another day off - I feel a bit more energized and like I *could* tackle that stuff I've fallen behind on... but now it's time to go back to my workweek where I have no time or energy. Bleh.
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We finished watching The Fall of the House of Usher, and I really enjoyed it. I'm hoping to rewatch it with Taylor - I think they'd like it, too.
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Took the dogs to the pet store yesterday and wound up getting them too much stuff. Spoiled monsters.
Bella is up to 41 lbs though, which is great! That's about the weight we were hoping to get her to. She fluctuated in the mid-30s when we got her from the shelter before we figured out her dietary problems. Because of her knees we were told *not* to let her gain any weight, and I understand the concern, but... her ribs were still prominent at that weight, and her hip bones stuck out enough that they caused discomfort for her when she'd sit, or if people pet her there. So while we don't want her much heavier than this, she's looking and moving SO much better now. She's also put on a lot of muscle - she actually has the beginnings of a butt, lol, plus her shoulders and chest are getting stronger. She looks like a proper beefy pitbull (just still small)! I am still just really blown away by how much better she looks now as compared to when we got her.
Cy has unfortunately dropped quite a bit of weight. We've upped his food intake, and his energy levels have been great the last few days, but it's upsetting how much muscle he's lost. He still seems to be doing okay otherwise, but just isn't holding weight well.
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I've got two major things to catch up on: writing the AUgust oneshots, and catching up on my habit tracking. I think the biggest issue I've been having is that both are hovering over me, and then I can't decide which to do, so I wind up doing neither. I feel like catching up on the tracking means I'm neglecting writing, but every day that I DON'T catch up on tracking is another day I have to try and reconstruct from memory. Both tasks feel like they grow to an even less-manageable size every day I fail to do them, and the indecision about which to tackle has been paralyzing me.
Sure, these are annoying minor problems to be griping about this way, but this is one of those probable-ADHD things that I HATE struggling with, because I CAN see that it's a stupid thing to be so stuck on, and it's not like any of this is high-stakes, but it is SO EXTREMELY FRUSTRATING.
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NaNoWriMo is coming up distressingly fast, and I'm still trying to figure out what I want to do for it, if anything. I feel like I'll regret it if I don't even give it a go, but I also worry about trying to tackle it without a chance to do any preparatory work, and considering how badly I've dragged on the AU fics, I don't think I'll have a chance to do anything else this month.
I'm aware that I've been battling burnout for months - for most of this year, really, though I've actually written a lot more than I'd anticipated I would this year so far. Even so, it's been in spurts, broken up with a lot of frustrating stretches of near-zero writing because I just *can't.* I don't like that feeling, and unfortunately I know that a lot of times NaNo leaves me feeling that way if I push too hard to make wordcount.
Buuuuut, I also really WANT to get excited about a project, and NaNo can be a great source of hype and enthusiasm, even if I'm not doing any of the social aspects of it. I want to write something that's just... shamelessly iddy and do my best to have FUN writing something. Not that other things haven't been fun, just... I really want to lean into writing something tailor-made as brain candy for me, lol. Then again, writing something intended to be pure id-fic for myself is a little revealing, ha, and makes me reluctant to say overmuch about it. (But I'm leaning toward a fantasy werewolf poly romance thing that I accidentally got invested in some ideas for, lol.)
That does mean that I didn't succeed in any of the catching up I needed to do, but I think getting outside and moving around was the better thing to do! I wish I had another day off - I feel a bit more energized and like I *could* tackle that stuff I've fallen behind on... but now it's time to go back to my workweek where I have no time or energy. Bleh.
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We finished watching The Fall of the House of Usher, and I really enjoyed it. I'm hoping to rewatch it with Taylor - I think they'd like it, too.
-
Took the dogs to the pet store yesterday and wound up getting them too much stuff. Spoiled monsters.
Bella is up to 41 lbs though, which is great! That's about the weight we were hoping to get her to. She fluctuated in the mid-30s when we got her from the shelter before we figured out her dietary problems. Because of her knees we were told *not* to let her gain any weight, and I understand the concern, but... her ribs were still prominent at that weight, and her hip bones stuck out enough that they caused discomfort for her when she'd sit, or if people pet her there. So while we don't want her much heavier than this, she's looking and moving SO much better now. She's also put on a lot of muscle - she actually has the beginnings of a butt, lol, plus her shoulders and chest are getting stronger. She looks like a proper beefy pitbull (just still small)! I am still just really blown away by how much better she looks now as compared to when we got her.
Cy has unfortunately dropped quite a bit of weight. We've upped his food intake, and his energy levels have been great the last few days, but it's upsetting how much muscle he's lost. He still seems to be doing okay otherwise, but just isn't holding weight well.
-
I've got two major things to catch up on: writing the AUgust oneshots, and catching up on my habit tracking. I think the biggest issue I've been having is that both are hovering over me, and then I can't decide which to do, so I wind up doing neither. I feel like catching up on the tracking means I'm neglecting writing, but every day that I DON'T catch up on tracking is another day I have to try and reconstruct from memory. Both tasks feel like they grow to an even less-manageable size every day I fail to do them, and the indecision about which to tackle has been paralyzing me.
Sure, these are annoying minor problems to be griping about this way, but this is one of those probable-ADHD things that I HATE struggling with, because I CAN see that it's a stupid thing to be so stuck on, and it's not like any of this is high-stakes, but it is SO EXTREMELY FRUSTRATING.
-
NaNoWriMo is coming up distressingly fast, and I'm still trying to figure out what I want to do for it, if anything. I feel like I'll regret it if I don't even give it a go, but I also worry about trying to tackle it without a chance to do any preparatory work, and considering how badly I've dragged on the AU fics, I don't think I'll have a chance to do anything else this month.
I'm aware that I've been battling burnout for months - for most of this year, really, though I've actually written a lot more than I'd anticipated I would this year so far. Even so, it's been in spurts, broken up with a lot of frustrating stretches of near-zero writing because I just *can't.* I don't like that feeling, and unfortunately I know that a lot of times NaNo leaves me feeling that way if I push too hard to make wordcount.
Buuuuut, I also really WANT to get excited about a project, and NaNo can be a great source of hype and enthusiasm, even if I'm not doing any of the social aspects of it. I want to write something that's just... shamelessly iddy and do my best to have FUN writing something. Not that other things haven't been fun, just... I really want to lean into writing something tailor-made as brain candy for me, lol. Then again, writing something intended to be pure id-fic for myself is a little revealing, ha, and makes me reluctant to say overmuch about it. (But I'm leaning toward a fantasy werewolf poly romance thing that I accidentally got invested in some ideas for, lol.)